roar.

It's 2 days before the beginning of my senior year. I have plans to go to the city tomorrow with a few of my friends. I'm not quite sure what we're gonna do there or how we're gonna get around. All because one of my friends decided to not show. Family business or somethin. Not gonna ask. In any case, the fact that this is going to be my last year before "life" hit me quite hard two nights ago. I was coming home from traffic school about 30 minutes before my parents expected me so I had close to an hour to do anything but go home. I ended up just driving by my old elementary school and middle school. In the case of my elementary school, I haven't been back there since i graduated back in 2001. It's a place that doesn't hold very much good memories. I had just moved here and that year ended up being hell. Driving by my middle school gave me mixed feelings. I did have some good times there but overall it was quite bad and going there brought back some of the memories. After I had been to both, I decided to go visit the hill. As far as I know, the hill is the tallest spot here in Vallejo. I've only been on it a few times since I discovered it and the view from the top is pretty fuckin amazing. Anyways, the reason I went up there was to try and clear my head.

On my way up i decided to call Alex. At the time I thought that we had been growing apart and
she wasn't someone I could count on anymore. Turns out that was far from correct. I called her and after telling her everything about how scared I was for the future and how I felt so alone and isolated, she invited me to spend the night. For that, I am forever grateful. The following night ended up being one of my most memorable nights of the summer. What makes it odd is that we spent the whole night locked up in her room with her 10 year old sister. Just bein able to talk to her about some of the stuff thats been on my mind did wonders for me. I also got the chance to catch up with her on stuff thats been going on in her life. We got to talkin bout life after high school and it turns out that we both have an interest in living in a big city. I really wish that I had the chance to catch up with her more often though. I think part of what made that night so memorable is the fact that she knew I needed someone there and was fully willing to be that someone.

So Alex, if you ever read this, know that I am incredibly grateful to have a friend like you in my life.