grawrski (Or Another Time I couldn't Think of a Decent Title)

Quite an eye opener today. Turns out I have no aspirations for myself, I lack manners, I have a severe attitude problem, and I'm apparently very immature. It's not everyday that one finds out they have so many problems with themselves. Some of these labels are justified to an extent, but the way I was told all of this implies the worst possible case for everything mentioned. I'm not sure if I want to make this post a defense of myself, or to just vent out everything that has happened recently. Since I don't see myself getting to sleep until much later, I might as well give both sides a shot.

Before I do any of this, let me provide some context. I've been going out with this girl for a few months now and lately I've been having a few problems. Namely, I tend to leave my dirty plates out, I leave my stuff at her house, and I argue with her younger siblings. Understandably, her mother dislikes this, and for good reason too. My only defense is that I spend too much time worrying about what mood my girlfriend is in to actually pay attention to those things. I admit, it is a very weak defense. Another thing mentioned is my attitude problem. I have this habit of making it very clear when I don't want to do something. I've never been one to pretend to enjoy something that I don't and I guess this is a major reason why I'm no longer liked. Every time I'm asked to do something I don't like, whether it be Jen or her mother, my first response is usually a long pause followed by a reluctant "I guess....." I can see how that would be annoying but it honestly has never been a problem for me before. I suppose that's because I've never had so much asked of me before. That's probably a major reason why I'm doing such a poor job of handling this.

Arguing with the brothers is another thing that gets me in trouble. I've never really seen it as a problem, but apprently it bothers her mother immensely. It's somewhat hard for me to stop seeing as I'm so immature myself.

I don't know, I've been feeling that her mother has been making far too many unreasonable requests of me. Getting newspapers, picking up her sons, driving out of town to get supplies or her paycheck, grabbing things from the stpre,I don't know. Seems unreasonable to me. The things I've been required to do I've failed pretty ad at which is inexcusable. Bleh. W/e. Ill see where this ends up taking me.