Today is the first day in a while that I've had to myself. I figured it would be a good thing, but I'm starting to realize it isn't really the best for me. I have a lot of time to think. That is NEVER a good thing. The thing that's been on my mind the most is what I told my girlfriend a few weeks ago. If I had the chance, I would take it back in a heartbeat. I ended up hurting her feelings and I'm not sure if I'll ever be able to bring back how things used to be. It was that kind of thing. And it brought me on to how we first started talking and how I was so nervous I just kept on talking. I wonder if she still remembers...

I want to write her a letter. But she's been written lots of letters by lots of guys in the past. What makes mine any more special, any more important to her than any of theirs? Is it because I'm her current boyfriend? I don't know. This whole "letter thing" only came about because I read one of my other friend's feelings about someone. Bleh, here I go...


Dear Jen.

I have a lot of thoughts running through my head right now, and most of them have to do with you. I'm sure you've heard this many times before, and from many different guys, but don't let that take away from what I think about you. You are amazing, and I mean that in every sense of the word. You are without a doubt the most caring person I have ever met. I love the way you care about me, but what I find more amazing is your ability to care about others in general. You've told me before that caring too much is stressful. I'm telling you that you should never stop. There aren't enough people like that in the world. There's just so much about you to love. I don't want to sound cheesy, but I'm in love with your smile.
I don't know Jen. I just have all these thoughts about you. Man.

I loves ya.