No light.

It is 11pm on a Tuesday night and I'm sitting here at my kitchen counter on my dad's new laptop. Why I'm not currently out with friends or on the phone with someone is the reason why I decided to blog.

I managed to make it through 2 years of high school without getting anything proper accomplished. I never joined any sports, never socialized, and never worked. That would have been sort of ok if i had good grades. Thing is, I didn't. I managed to get almost straight C's throughout my 2 years which is nothing to be proud of. What all this has to do with me being home on a tuesday night I'm not so sure about yet. I think the main point of it all is that all the time i wasted goofing off and being immature and weird is kicking me in the ass now.

I hate this damn blog. All it shows to me is that I've been complaining about my life for almost 2 years without doing anything about it. I think now is the time for me to change it. There is a very good chance that I've said that before in this blog but I'm going to ignore that little tidbit.

I think I've reached the point where I just want to give up. I know tomorrow I probably won't feel the same but right now I feel as low as i can get. Sorta like... yeah. I bet dying hurts.