I just decided to listen to Lose Yourself by Eminem and it's somewhat shocking to me how many memories this song brings back. This song came out some time in 2003 if I remember correctly. I was about halfway through sixth grade and I spent my mornings watching music videos on MTV and VH1. It wasn't so much because I chose to, I just had nothing better to do. Our situation meant that I had to leave in the morning with my dad and stay at my uncle's house from 6am til 8am. During those days, I picked up my habit of watching the news regularly. I can't remember any news stories from that time period. I do remember many music videos from that time tho. When I see the music videos now, it just kinda sends me back to that time period. Looking back on it now, it's hard to believe that was over six years ago. My biggest worries of that time were just finding some friends and gettin my homework done. Which never happened. Ever. Surprising at all that I passed.
    I don't know, when I look back on it now, it seems so long ago, but at the same time, it feels like it could have happened last week. I've changed so much from when I first moved to Vallejo. When I first moved here, I had no clue on how to look good. I still don't now but at least it's improved. I had no idea how to talk to girls at all, I had no idea how to hold a conversation, I had zero social life... I think I've come a long way. I used to think about the day when I would have my own car and be able to come home at 4am instead 8pm. That's a somewhat regular occurance for me now, but I never would have guessed it would be as often as I do now.
   I made my decision to go to a high school that