new year, new ______

I just read a story on craigslist about a guy who spent time in prison due to a mix up. Reading it kinda just put my problems in perspective. So I had a little bit too much to drink at that party and some people showed me how they really feel about me. I have a roof over my head, parents who love me, a girlfriend who loves me, and friends who seem to give a shit. I have a job that lets me have a good time and save for the future, and my health. So far, I've spent the entire day feeling sorry for myself and wondering why I'm so unliked by those people. What I should be doing is blocking them out, and just moving forward. I know what it is I have to do, but why is it so hard? I keep telling myself that I'm better than them because I'm the only one with a job and a gf. I think all I want is the spontaneous lifestyle back.

Oh and I think I should finish my blog entries when I start writing them. I usually end up finding something else to momentarily capture my attention and by the time I get back, I'm not in the same frame of mind I was when I started.

Different thought this time. I like sociology. It's an academic class where we learn about why people act the way they do. There are smart sounding explanations for why people do certain things. Me being the fool that I am, I read random stories on the internet instead of paying attention and taking notes.

I think for the new year I'm gonna randomly go to San Francisco just cos. I live in one of the most diverse places in the world and I really want to just find someone I can have an amazing conversation with. Whenever I ride the bus it just feels as if everyone has their own story going on.

One day I will get better at english. I'll also get better at condensing my thoughts into something much more presentable.