I just decided to listen to Lose Yourself by Eminem and it's somewhat shocking to me how many memories this song brings back. This song came out some time in 2003 if I remember correctly. I was about halfway through sixth grade and I spent my mornings watching music videos on MTV and VH1. It wasn't so much because I chose to, I just had nothing better to do. Our situation meant that I had to leave in the morning with my dad and stay at my uncle's house from 6am til 8am. During those days, I picked up my habit of watching the news regularly. I can't remember any news stories from that time period. I do remember many music videos from that time tho. When I see the music videos now, it just kinda sends me back to that time period. Looking back on it now, it's hard to believe that was over six years ago. My biggest worries of that time were just finding some friends and gettin my homework done. Which never happened. Ever. Surprising at all that I passed.
    I don't know, when I look back on it now, it seems so long ago, but at the same time, it feels like it could have happened last week. I've changed so much from when I first moved to Vallejo. When I first moved here, I had no clue on how to look good. I still don't now but at least it's improved. I had no idea how to talk to girls at all, I had no idea how to hold a conversation, I had zero social life... I think I've come a long way. I used to think about the day when I would have my own car and be able to come home at 4am instead 8pm. That's a somewhat regular occurance for me now, but I never would have guessed it would be as often as I do now.
   I made my decision to go to a high school that

My first experience riding the 30-Stockton was during a Spare The Air day a few years back. I was in the city with my dad and since we weren't able to accomplish what we came for, I figured I might as well take the oppurtunity to explore. Now, this was the first time I had ever been allowed in the city by myself so I was a bit uneasy at where to start. Chinatown was the only place I knew of and since it was close to Union Square, I figured that was a good place to start.
After wandering around Chinatown for about an hour, I figured it was about time I head back to meet my dad. A brief glance at the map told me that the 30-Stockton would drop me off right at Union Square. About 4 minutes later, I see a full bus lumbering towards my stop. Now, I have been taking the bus in Vallejo for about 5 years so I figured it couldn't be that different. I saw people cussing out the driver, crazy people singing to themselves, people yelling at objects, and the occasional stinky man. None of that prepared me for the sheer number of people on that bus. It was almost impossible to get in, and I was going through the back door. After much elbowing and shoving, I had managed to squeeeze myself onto the second step of the door. For those unfamiliar with MUNI buses, the back doors won't close if someone is standing on the back steps. I knew that there was enough room for me to get on, but no one wanted to move. I didn't want to move either. When the bus driver wouldn't move, people started to stare at me. I stared right back. 10 seconds of this and the old guy closest to me reluctantly began to move. 

I think the whole "parents needing you in order to be ok" is stupid. i wanna  rant but it would be inappropriate

Drink

So today I realized the cost of alcohol. It sucks a lot. Remy costs $40+, Grey Goose costs $50+, Hennesy costs $30+, and this random tequila was around $30. I had bottles of all that for free. Now, all gone. I mean, I did manage to drink most of it cept the Goose, but I'm kinda sad I didn't hold on to em longer.

I don't like the song Tik Tok. It sounds a lot like Just Dance and the message it sends is horrible. All it talks about is drinking and partying. Not gonna lie, those things are very fun to do, but they don't do much when you want to talk to someone who can actually carry a legit conversation.