Thoughts of..........Stuff

It's now been 1 month since I got back from the Philippines. I'm done with being depressed for the most part and I'm already back into my regular routine again. I have to say, that life here for me is incredibly boring. All I do everyday is wake up, go to school, come home with very little happening in between. Maybe 3 days out of 5 I'll go to my friend's house but we're running out of things to do at his house already. I may be back into my regular routine and everything but I still find myself thinking about the good time I had in the PHilippines. I don't think Ill ever be able to completely stop thinking about the Philippines because I had such a great time while I was there.The main thing that I'm trying to do is commit the entire 2 weeks to memory so that I won't forget the things that I did there. I guess what sucks the most is how lonely I am over here. While I was there almost the entire time I had one of my little cousins with me. I miss her waaaay to much seeing as I was only with her for 2 weeks. The main thing that I'm afraid of is that when I get bak there in 2 years she won't remember me anymore.

I think that its funny that even though we're only in 10th grade, my friends and I are already planning a trip to the philippines after we graduate high school. I seriously doubt that it will actually happen due to a variety of reasons the main one one being money. I guess its good to plan though. As of now we hope to be at least 4 of us going. We haven't yet planned out what we're going to do when we get there yet but my friend supposedly owns a resort there.

I've just finished my first 2 days of finals and it surprised me. I was expecting to have a really hard time with my geometry test but it surprised me at how easy. The only bad thing now is that if I did bad on the test I'd feel terrible. Filipino was shitloads harder than I expected it would. We had to translate 2 articles with 1 in english and one in tagalog. I have to say that the one I had the hardest time with was the Tagalog to English one. I'm worried about the history final I have to take tomorrow because to be honest, I barely know the material that its on. More importantly than any of those things, is the fact that I have to write a book report in taglish that's due tomorrow. I know that i'll have to do it but instead of doing that I'm writing in this damn blog that no one will ever read.

The main reason why I'm here blogging instead of doing my book report is that I have to get this stuff off of my chest. One last thing. Meeting a girl in the philippines is the last thing I expected to happen because now i find myself missing her. Which is both good and bad. Mostly good.

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Isn't it weird how when you miss a place, the strangest things will remind you of there? I dunno if this is true with all people but it has been for me for the last 2 weeks. One of the most unexpected things for me was the message tone on ym cell phone. While I was in the Philippines that was going off non stop for about 4 days. Now that I'm back here it's a sound I rarely here. Today when it went off out of nowhere, the first thing I could think was......... And All of a sudden I was back in the Philippines sitting on the doorstep texting.

I've been back in CA for 2 weeks now and I'm pretty much back to my old routine. The first week was really hard for me since all I could think of was my relatives and how much I missed them all.I guess what made it hard for me was that for most of my life it's just been me and my parents and then all of a sudden I'm surrounded by family. All of a sudden I have people to talk to, little cousins to play with, people to just be around. It was a big change when before I would be by myself most of the time. I guess it's partly my fault for not making that many friends.....

i also realize that i am a very shitty writer so please dont critisize even tho my writing is terrible