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It's 11pm on a school night and I have a major essay due for my government class on Friday. Today is Wednesday. Normally, I wouldn't even consider doing this assignment until the day before it was due. I figured I would get a jump start on it since it is the end of the year and all, but I've been stopped dead in my tracks. By something that I usually disregard.

Jealousy.

Who'd have thought? Definately not me.

Thing is, it seems like my girlfriend is better than me at damn near anything. She plays piano, guitar, is ridiculously artistic, and on top of that, she's super friendly. Oh, and I found out today that she's also a good writer. I might be a little quick to be judging that last part, considering I've only heard the first paragraph of her essay, but still. People don't usually write a good first paragraph and then drop off. What's bothering me more than anything, is the fact that I'm even jealous at all. These sort of things don't normally bother me. I mean, I'm surrounded by lots of people everyday who are probably more talented than I could ever hope to be. I just don't seem to by affected by any of thing. It could have something to do with the fact that I don't actually know any of these people, but it still doesn't account for my feelings at this moment.

I realize that this entire post will probably come off as me being resentful and everything, but that's not what I'm feeling. I lied, thats exactly what I'm feeling.

One more thing, after reading over this entry, I realized something; I have a very scattered thought process.


onwardstoessayshoooooooray.