A couple of weeks farther into the senior year, things are starting to become boring. I don't exactly know why but things have just started to become so monotonous. I go out waaaay more than I did before, I'm in much better physical shape than before, and I'm actually doing some of my classwork now. Yet, I still feel like somethings missing. Oh yeah, the thing that I figured would eventually happen has happened. Alex and I are currently not talking. No idea why though. It kinda sucks knowing that she can turn on me like that but I'm sure that things will fix themselves in time. I don't know why, but theres something about her being in a relationship that bothers me. I guess its just me being jealous. Don't get me wrong, I'm happy for her, its just that I don't like sharing.
Can't believe I haven't written down the most awesome day I've had in a while though. That day a couple of weeks ago when Kylie and I went out for a chill day. Spent like an hour at the park near the water just chilling and listening to music before goin over to my house. Nothing out of the ordinary happened there. I wish I could put more detail into this but I just want to get something down before I forget.

It's 8 or 9 weeks into my senior year. Where the hell did all that time go?! Sheeeeeeeit! Just two months ago it was the first day of school and everything was so...firm? In any case, the future is coming at me and it's starting to get more and more scary. The best thing about this year so far? I'm finally secure in knowing who my friends are. I have my two best friends by my side. It's taken me almost a year to decide, but they've never done me seriously wrong. In the last few weeks, I've managed to have the most awesome, laid back, fun chill days with them as well as my other friends. There was yesterday at the library and Denny's, and today at Target and Starbucks. The last two days have been filled with laughter and stuff that I'll probably remember for a long time after high school. Good part, it's only 2 months into senior year. Ive got so many more months to fill with memories. Bad part? This all has to end some day, and the day it does, I'll be facing the big, scary, world all by my lonesome self. Right now I say bring it on. I know that will soon change...

rain again

First rain of the season. More importantly, it signals the start of my favorite time of the year. Most of all it reminds me how quickly time passes. It was around this time last year that I actually met Alex in person and started actually talking to her properly. I don't remember anything significant happening to me from October until around November/Decemberish. First time I slept over at her house and started to get to know her family. Funny how the rain makes everything seem so much more cozy. Not quite sure what I'm trying to accomplish with this entry, other than mention the fact that this past year was probably the fastest year of my life so far. Unfortunately, I've heard from others that this year will fly by. I don't want that. I want to be able to savor every stupid thing my friends and I do and have every fun moment I have last forever. However, for some strange reason, I can never forget this one day in February where all I did was sleepover. Even though that day was about 8 months ago now, I can still remember the smallest details. The turquoise Explorer that drove by while we were playing is still as vivid in my memory as that day. In any case, that was the day Alex and I spent about 30 minutes playing catch outside her house. I'm sure if she were to look back on that day it would just be the day her and her boyfriend split. For me, I'll remember it as the day we played catch. I'll probably never understand why I hold those 30-40 minutes so close to me. We didn't talk about anything particularly interesting. I seem to remember it more as the first time I was able to just catch up and talk to her about normal things and what not. Maybe it was the fact that she made me feel as if someone in this world actually gave a damn about me. For her, it was probably just a way to take her mind off of what was to happen later that day. I don't know. I've never been upfront enough with her to ask her straight up and that event is long enough in he past that it's no longer important. Anyways, the arrival of the rain just had me thinking back on this past year. So much has happened, and at the same time, nothing has changed. It's strange. At least I have this rainy season to look forward to. Hopefully there will be more movie watching on the comfyass sofa and more driving around in the rain just because. Oh yeah. Since when did everyone have a freakin blog? hmmmmmmmm?